If black people had the economic, political control of the world how many of you honestly believe that white people would be facing the same type of racism, oppression, poverty, social injustice, criminal and political injustice and depression the way black people have all this time ? Also do you think we would have subjected them to the same type of brutal slavery as they did to us? Rapping their women and children of front of the men, then raping black  men in front of their wives, cutting our penis off and putting it in our mouths , using our children as foot stools and alligator bate? Ect Ect .. Do you believe that what I just described, as it happened to black people, would white people be facing or have faced the same fate?

I don't think we should have our kids growing up with a phone in their face 24/7 because their parents are addicted to their cell phones and social media.. Our babies seeing a constant image of them with snap chat features constantly changing their face ... All kinds of scary ones too .. They are the first generation to have had this done .. we don't know the pathology of what affect this may have on their perception of reality .. Therefore leaving only time to tell what kind of sick psycho we have running around our homes ..... it will be your fault if this has some negative adverse affect .. 🤦🏾♂️

To anyone it applies: Just because I openly judge the things you do that is in fact problematic doesn't mean that I don't love and honor you .. I think the fact that I do love you and honor you is what makes me judge you ...If I didn't I wouldn't create the conversation that enables me to help you question your actions that are in fact harmful... maybe it would be easy to make the connection as far as what I'm judging vs how problematic it is on your life and noticing that nothing that isn't harmful to you I judge ... Also just because someone is judging you doesn't mean it is a negative judgment .. many of times it is a "real" judgment and because what your doing is "really fucked up", is why you think I'm being negative .. Because in describing what I'm judging,your hearing me judge YOU! And maybe for the first time your hearing yourself described and you don't like how it sounds, but your in denial as to why your up set at me for mentioning it to you .... What I'm getting you to do is face what your doing that is harmful to you but it's sucks to you because your in that moment, facing your own mortality .. #chrisdread

   Stop being such an asshole all the time, walking around guilty and defensive every time someone tells you about yaself and your only rebuttal is "your so judgmental" That doesn't work on smart people!

"In any case.. when you get my full attention. I become a very very exciting lover .. Whether if it was a short time or a long time ... I'm completely indulging in every thing about you .. I want to know who you are who your family is .. what your mother and father does for a living, if your close to your siblings .. Have you been hurt , I evaluate that through conversation, as far as how you moved on from it.. I measuring you constantly .. I'm stimulated by the sound smell and sight of you ... I'm completely under a sexual conquest of you .. That's automatic, I want to, all around understand your body, because if I fall short in any areas due to my own circumstances I know how important it is that I am someone your trust giving you and orgasm .. Reading that u may think that's shallow but that is fundamental psychology .. I want to be the person you tell the things you can't even say to your own self in the mirror or in a dark room filled with hopelessness ..  I want to be the person that with just slight gaze of eye contact I can calm you down or worry you ..  I wana scare your soul but I wana free it... I want you to be afraid of my potential, so much that u warn people of my future ..  I want to grab your hair, you feel no pain just tingles ... I want to grab your throat, that slight hint of danger provides that unknown territory that you oddly are turned on by ..  See me as kinky.. See me with no description just vague understanding ... I want you to know nothing about me but your the only person that knows something about me... I want you to lust me to such a degree, that you whole heartedly have a disdain towards me..  I want you to make love to me and scream in frustration as to why the feeling your taken by is so scarce .. I want to love your confusion ... Then I want to see how much I've taken affect on you and see you take everything you've learned and try it in your life .. I mostly just want you to see, in order to get my full attention I just have to be happy .. Your already perfect. Your the creator . I have to be happy .... me! I can't stress that enough "  " 

Figurative entry #chrisdread 

As a man you supposed to be able to just look at a chick and tell if she just interested in a nigga for money , or if she's actually human and is interested in you .. No nigga is tricking that didn't already on his own agreed to subconsciously pay for ya vagina ... You can't get fooled into tricking , you  a trick ass nigga from the start .. And believe it or not, yea u getting vagina, but your the one looking in the bathroom mirror when u washing off ya beef in the sink like damn , "I just spent 1000$ in 4 hours just for that? And I don't even know if she like me for me?" These rich ass rappers put out these songs fucking y'all head up talking bout I put u in a plane and I bought u this bag and that bag!!! Uhhh nigga he rich not you !! And then rappers be lying anyway they treat hoes like hoes!! But u out here competing with a rap song !! Risking ya life and blowing money on a hustle just to get the girl who got madddd followers, mean wile the nigga she really like she spending money on him .. smh!! Stop being a trick ass nigga , save your money save your integrity and atlesst cater to a woman who's deserving and who makes u laugh and hold ya stomach and who is authentically not a voluntary or involuntary hoe!! 

Great Sex/Great Provider/ Faithful/Awesome personality 

More Generally those are the 4 main components that generally sums up what a person would look for in a person as far as a relationship is concerned .. 

  Within your relationship( if your one of them robots who thinks in order to experience people like this u have to have a title), if your only getting 1/4 or 2/4ths of this equation in nearly every person u meet .. what enables you to enter the relationship in the first place ? Hopes of this person developing the others 2/4ths out of thin air , or u think ur so great u will change them and build then to gain the others 2/4ths? Most people think in 2017 they still have patients to train adults .. train them on how to have sex or communicate or to be faithful or financially responsible .... Do you hear how women are talking about men these days ? Like their always lacking in something or them feeling how most men can't get it right ? Most black women are starting to believe she's stronger than a man .. Do you How men talk about women ? I mean this is a new day .. I hope y'all paying attention to the shifts .. 

I sincerely believe to experience true love we need to drop these old  ideas thrown on us about how we supposed to engage someone or your lover or how dating goes Ect ..  Because old fashion concepts with new era women and men are clashing .. I think each person has to have a unique alternative.

When it all boils down .  We just weren't the people born in the era where our people ruled the earth .. We only know the stories. How  convenient of them to take away the practice of worshiping our ancestor by Giving us "Jesus Christ", The Son of God. Taking away the culture and the practice of staying connected to our Kings and Queens who ruled and outlived the stars. No we were not born in the time of our peoples reign.. So it's more than just a matter of how to get back there... Its also a question of, "When will the people who reigned Terror over humanity and this planet for thousands of years, be Judged??" And by whom exactly .. The Ancestors!? Jesus Christ ?( the letter J being a much younger letter than black people FYI) Some sort of space being ? Or can their reign last for eternity ? 

That's why this personal project I'm on I named (Quest) shirt for questions .. ( I love how words belong to each other) Old name for me but new meaning.. it didn't hit me at first .. but I have Question marks tattooed on my body randomly .. Not really knowing why I always loved that symbol or why I'd randomly tattoo several question marks on differently places of my body.. Symbols are so important in the spiritual world. Symbols and numbers .. Sometimes you have to look within to get clues .. But I have sooo many questions. 

It's seems as though the difference between happiness and sadness is merely patience .. 

When I was a teacher and one of my students who prolly wasn't as fortunate as other kids, got a new pair of sneakers 👟. Coming to school the first day they got to wear them  was usually like the best day of their lives .. A very very different approach to the kids who gets new sneakers all the time .. And then you realize like, this stereotype, that black people are consumed by vanity and materialism, wile very true, it's a very unnatural characteristic of black people ... it is in fact a characteristic of the result of poverty ... When a student would come into class with new sneakers that were hot.. it is though that is the only moment that child was deserving of respect ... Oddly enough standing there as a man, I can remember feeling the same thing in my memories in elementary school myself ..Being right in the middle of it all ... Then for that child coming with the nice sneakers that usually don't have nice sneakers .. He/she is confronted with jealously, other kids experiencing poverty wants to take these sneakers some times .. The kids with money, they wana check to see if it's real and not Payless .. Being a teacher  spending thousands of hours with kids of different ages has given me not only an appreciation for kids a million times over .. But it has shown me a great depth of humility, love and much much pain.. So much of them suffer far more than we think and classism, poverty and all these adult issues and greeds has created some children with broken spirits.. So you can imagine them becoming an adult what kind of person they developed into .. Its creating a chain reaction through the generations .. Poverty is the issues and above poverty the real issue shows itself ... And we should all know what that is by now.. 

Nothing like finally seeing a woman tackle her insecurities and eliminate em .... Then she step out and Now everybody like 👀👀👀👀who that .. And she killing em..Now they all want her , but she's humble enough not to act like a bitch about it  when they call at her .. She understands it's a competitive social world ..She understands as humans we all subconsciously are always trying to choose the healthiest person to mate with.. And when she's at her best she is giving off a completely different physical and mental energy ..  But it takes a strong person both man and woman to at some point be rejected in many ways, then fix them self for themselves, then get back into Society and not dog people for not finding them interesting or attractive at a point .. That's why when most insecure people or most "ugly ducklings" as society so crudely Lable's it, finally find their flow and step out with a new attitude ..... PEOPLE STILL DONT LIKE YOU !! Cuz you made it about arrogance, conceit and pay back ... That never works cuz people are always ready to remind you who u were last year and where you come from ... 

    There really is a social construct where physical appearance can literally determine ya life experience and people are afraid to talk about it .. People are afraid to talk about the distinct difference between a person the world considers Gorgeous , attractive, beautiful, handsome or sexy vs the people society deems as unattractive, ugly , fat or unusual ..... People are afraid to talk about how different their lives are ....  it's crazy to me cuz it's such a thin line .. For instance, you realize a nice looking woman with a flat stomach vs a nice looking woman with a big belly has 2 completely experience and just losing her belly she has no clue what's on the other side of that work ... Because flat stomachs are rare and becusse it is an anomaly people respond to that differently as it changes ya shape, makes it sexier.. Instantly   There's a change in her energy.... we must be aware of what we do with each other how we judge one another cuz we definitely all judge ..We just have to do it more constructively ..

Wile it is clear to me that they say "this is a mans world" ... Being a man that's part of the race of men who are most talented most intelligent, the strongest not only in physical comparison but in all genre sense..The most gorgeous by far and the most loving and the most lusted .... 

     It is even more clear to me that the state of black men in America and the rest of the world is so perilous , that the statement was never meant to apply to us not even in the slightest .. What that statement should say is This is a Rich mans world aka Jewish/White mans world .. And if you can understand the truth, that black men is this mans greatest threat and intimidation, then you will immediately understand that , one, we will never be treated with equality because equality isn't a principle of love ... Secondly, they  don't want us to know we invented most things and they took the credit, they don't want you to know that you have more raw natural ability to gross more fiscal gain than them so hey never let us get anywhere or let us gain full access to owning banks and major distribution, ownership of media outlets to communicate with our people world wide , no majors food or water distribution to keep our people healthy, we can't own our own school to educate our people nor do we have the same rights in judicial systems nor the same rights to bare arms ...  

 Thirdly ... And the most affective thing , They have gotten their hands in the black women and used her against us and have been doing so for many time past .. Advancing her way ahead of the black man constantly endorsing that that he is not deserving of respect and at the same time endorsing in the white culture that the man is head of house which can only be so if he's ahead of finical power in the country in general ... They gave black people Christianity which pacifies a revolution, made Jesus white so that we subconsciously believe that white people are deity.. When Black men and black women were Gods all along .. They raped black men in front of u endorsing a false sense of power or weakness within the black man that never existed.. They raped you in front of the black man to give you the impressions that he is powerless... This is embedded in your bone marrow, the memories of your ancestors lay within you.. That is the tension u see in us every day .. They put that there and it has worked .. Black women show their frustration with the black man each day not realizing the state of our lives and the lack of control we have is the cause of our demise not some fault or black human error .. And instead of looking at the state of her man in this country, she is overcome by the influence she's been put under not knowing what to believe or who to blame ... 

  Black people have been infected with a The most treacherous venom, the most darkest of magic. The power of a black woman is the most important and probably the last stand because as far as black men, anyone who even has a voice for the people is taken out in the blink of an eye.. Out numbers are dwindling... They have been showing our modern generations slavery and black men being abused by cops on tv and movies for years now they show it on the news and social media every day happening to the new generations .. This won't end .. 

But what will we do to begin ?