Many many years ago early on in my life I fell for a woman with a child for the first time ... I always felt that I was fully attracted to her, I mean she was a lil older than me and a lil more experienced at the time.. One of those situations where the child's father was gone forever.. He was only about 2/3 years old at the time.. The intimacy I shared with her was owed to my relationship with her son.. I loved this kid.. Bathed him, fed him, put him to bed at night,I hugged him and kissed him everyday..i guess in retrospect I may have loved him more than I did her.. Maybe seeing all my energy and attention focused on him I pushed her out.. I always felt completely designed to be a father, and b4 my daughter I had so much exposure with my nieces and other lil babies that my mom always took in.. I know she loved me, she was proud of me and admired me because of the role I took for her son but sometimes the way she looked at me her eyes said"I know you don't belong to me" ..and I didn't.. We parted ways and she kept me from him...I guess she wanted it all as she so rightfully deserved .. Since then .. I've seen him 3 times.. He's a teenager now and he's all tall.. I didn't even know what to say so I said nothing.. Prolly won't even recognize me...but I look at him with sheer admiration .. She did a great job.. I'm happy for that experience although I lost them both .. Certain things u just don't forget.. Some Love,lives on.. And I just think to all men that has ever loved a child of another man.. It's one of the most, confusing, difficult, frustrating things u can do sometimes... But for me it's always the right thing.. @chrisdread

The moment you have sex with a New person  .. It opens up Dozens of Responsibilities and Critical choices ..The decision of who that person is, is so Crucial..We virtually have no idea what that person is capable of on the lines of positive and negative attributes because Sex Changes the atmosphere between 2 people .. So a person responding to you After sex is often, a lot different from the possibilities of who they were when you were platonic or before sex actually happened ..Critical thinking.

I think it's impressive as a man to Take a good look at her... Take a good look at how she interacts with you .. And Take a good look at how she responds to u ... And after it all you say"I Can Tell I'm Not Her Type".. Saves a lot of time because men know if they will function well with u or not very early on especially when observing the couple of men before him... @chrisdread

As the Sex Appeal Grows The Soul Appeal Slows... People are getting Sexier but No one is getting kinder ..Our External is Exploding but our Internal is Imploding ....we are without not within ...@chrisdread 

 I've never been afraid to tell a woman I love her and I've never been afraid to tell her I don't ..Funny how sometimes you say the word Love and for her it's Imprisonment.. And when you won't say it it's Freedom  

Why do some women get hurt by the same kind of guy in the same kind of way,Several different times in their lives to say I'm Done or I'm Tired of men.. Tired of men but never tired of her own Ignorance(IGNORE) ignoring the beautiful truth.. That she's a CUNT!!and she needs to wake up...how can so many of you have this happen over and over again? Why is choosing the "Obvious Good Man"So Unnatural for you..Is it a Natural Desire as women to compete with other women for the alpha male and you want to believe your love can subdue him therefor so many of you go After the same, not a dog,but a man that is only Gona do what you all allow?Same way men have 10 women but then say "I want a Wife".....yea But WHEN??He's a Cunt too. Cuz he's afraid if he picks 1,then he looses the liberty of pleasing the 9 reminding... Men love in variety... Our hearts are huge and our sexual desires are infinite...so we are all chasing our Tails, I'm not bias..and prolly no different from anyone .. @chrisdread

Most things that Hurt you makes you Feel Alive ..@chrisdread 

Black Ocean

The Success and the Independence of Black people is so important to me .. Our Adversaries have put in so much work to hide away the Information that sets us free and yet we prevail Artistically... They can never rest because somehow even though most of us are completely unaware of the Psychological Genocide,We Evolve... There's magic in us...Innate Godly Mechanics.. We are so amazing And Deep... I call us "Black Ocean" @ChrisDread 

Only advice I treasure is my own....but if I ask a question I'll value your answer ..@chrisdread

Laughter

Laughter is my true mode of life .... I love laughing and I love seeing people laugh till tears roll out their eyes.. Humor breaks tension,humor can educate ... Laughing keeps the skin tight.. Humor is noble .. Everyone loves a funny person no matter who u are.. It's charming, it's mystical and alluring ..Humor is a natural recourse ...I'm one of the silliest humans I know .. Won't come off so at first.. Cuz I'm a very serious man.. But that's only in the mode of observation and concentration ... But let my drop my guards for a second and warm up to you.. You'll see my transformation ... I need time initially... @chrisdread