To all mothers with sons: "as a son there's so much things u keep from ur mom .., u don't want her to worry about u knowing she'll worry anyway... Crazy world for a young black man.. She knew that b4 you were even born..as a kid I've witnessed a lot of horrible things b4 the age of 6... With everything we still have so much endearment towards the world .. But one of the things that took the Enchantment out of life was being up close and personal with the first murder I witnessed .. I knew him well he owned the store in my neighborhood .. Shot right in front of me.. I was 12 ..Nothing like the movies.. Not all this dramatic blood.. It was a lot scarier.. True pain..broad day light..there's so much u can say when ur clenching on to life but I remember clearly him asking for water.. He was so thirsty .. When my mom came home, I didn't want her to know or be worried but I couldn't hide it, it was cops everywhere .. They actually labeled me a material witness even though I didn't get to see the guys who did it.. Mug shots and days and hours of watching surveillance footage .. Situations like this a mother hates for her son To go through .. But keep in mind.. This is nothing .. 85% of the things ya son will go thorough you'll never really know about it for ur own protection,mentally especially .. This is not to build a disconnect but too keep then Enchantment of the within ur mom.. The role reverses.. All the things they try to keep you from is what we try to keep from them years later..ladies if ur raising ur son alone, know this and respect it.. He is a man without a man.. He has to learn to world from his own eyes.. As a woman u can give him so much but u can't give him his manhood .. His instincts has to be sharpened in the world.. Keep the friendship strong .. Allow him to look at u as an asset not a burden .. Give him a lil space trusting that he will always look to u for love and comfort.. There isn't much else u can do.. He will take care of u and protect u with his life ... BecuZ he is also your man .. But just know having a son.. You may never fully know the real him.. @chrisdread
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