It's ambiguous seeing your child grow, not really wanting them to stay small but wishing they could forever .... but every time she text me her feelings in the moment or to just let me know she's thinking about me b4 she goes to sleep, it really really gives u all the joy in the world .. to think, I changed every diaper, burped u, fed you baba, bathed you, now u over in ya bed texting me you love me like u grown ... lol it's a trip cuz nothing prepares you for them baby days to vanish .. I've watched the size of ya sweet lil fingers grow, your cute lil feet, I've heard ya voice changing , your body is going through changes approaching 11... and all I can think of is "Damn, there's people out here that's missing that, some who have kids and just not interested, and some people well into their 30s talking bout "I'm just waiting for the right person" like, it annoys me to know some of y'all will never experience what we all was put here to do !! Like your missing the greatest experience of live in your life !!! I never knew how a man or a woman could abandon they kids ... I just don't get that ... like what else are we here for ? We are designed solely to create humans and give them love and the knowledge u acquired to continue this chain of life ...
I keep telling myself ... "Wow !! I'm raising a young black woman .. a young black Queen" like what a honor to be bestowed on me.. I've kissed my child 1 million times since I first help her .. like, I have those kisses locked in my mind .. I am fulfilled primarily because she's given me so much memories of joy and love .. I've already succeeded ... because I know love.. and I mean truly .. yes there's love for friends and family and your lover but, let me explain this ... Especially when you have a healthy mind and you yourself was raised with love ... There's nothing , NOTHING more fantastic than going through life with a best friend like your own child .... I wish u all that experience of love we are all owed ...Some of u out here still buying Yorkies putting them in outfits and shit.. smh
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