The difficult thing about loving me is the balance in it .. {and I have to admit it openly cuz I have accepted that, for some, it's an unfair challenge}
"She'd have to know when to leave me the fuck alone and when to completely smother me .. That to some, doesn't sound hard but that line is sooo sooo thin .. And I'm admitting, that as a man , that's one way I'm problematic .. I guess my personal life and the things I've seen and experience, it has driven me into a place where solitude is most natural .. Though I crave intimacy, conversation, affection and sexual attention from a woman everyday .. I crave my private space just the same .. I don't really trust her anymore either .. I've seen too much, being socially over exposed, you see too much wrong even in the good ones u see soo much treachery.. Although myself, I never been heart broken by a woman in a traditional sense, yet I feel it's potential moving into this uncertain time .. I've grown less patient with that part of life and I've grown more interested in improving the state of the world, my environment and giving something to the young mind, to challenge their thoughts and inspire change.. She'd have to understand my true passion, work and my love for people. Most women that get a sample of passion and intimacy I have to offer, she forgets these things about me and creates her own plans .. Then in reminding her of what's really going on , it may cause great offense . When people ask me "so what happened to y'all" i always know what happened .. The real too.
This I admit as a man .. I know my problem patterns {do you?} .. That's why it's never really a problem just a process ... #chrisdread
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